In the beginning, I started off writing my diary, which leads me into writing poetry, then lyrics. My older brother believed in me and also influenced my talent back in 1985. He later died, but left a large impact, when it came to me. Throughout my younger life, I had to decide between love or family, which I explain in this book. In chapter three, I describe in graphic detail, of how I was abused throughout my relationships. The next chapter, I go into one of the worse times of a writer's life, when trusting the wrong person with your work..., then basically watching someone soliciting your artist name, and then profit off of it. When this happened to me, it threw me into a 5 year depress-ion. Then because my sister became my true fan, I found enough hope inside, to fight back on-line and not give up.

In the beginning, I started off writing my diary, which leads me into writing poetry, then lyrics. My older brother believed in me and also influenced my talent back in 1985. He later died, but left a large impact, when it came to me. Throughout my younger life, I had to decide between love or family, which I explain in this book. In chapter three, I describe in graphic detail, of how I was abused throughout my relationships. The next chapter, I go into one of the worse times of a writers life, when trusting the wrong person with your work..., then basically watching someone soliciting your artist name, and then profit off of it. When this happened to me, it threw me into a 5 year depress-ion. Then because my sister became my true fan, I found enough hope inside, to fight back on-line and not give up.

Includes, beginning Sept. 15, 1954 (and on the 15th of each month, Sept.-May) a special section: School library journal, ISSN 0000-0035, (called Junior libraries, 1954-May 1961). Issued also separately.

Was journalist Dorothy Kilgallen murdered for writing a tell-all book about the JFK assassination? Or was her death from an overdose of barbiturates combined with alcohol, as reported? Shaw believes Kilgallen's death has always been suspect, and unfolds a list of suspects ranging from Frank Sinatra to a Mafia don, while speculating on the possibilities of reopening the case.

A compassionate, shame-free guide for your darkest days “A one-of-a-kind book . . . to read for yourself or give to a struggling friend or loved one without the fear that depression and suicidal thoughts will be minimized, medicalized or over-spiritualized.”—Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church What happens when loving Jesus doesn’t cure you of depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts? You might be crushed by shame over your mental illness, only to be told by well-meaning Christians to “choose joy” and “pray more.” So you beg God to take away the pain, but nothing eases the ache inside. As darkness lingers and color drains from your world, you’re left wondering if God has abandoned you. You just want a way out. But there’s hope. In I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson offers a healthy, practical, and shame-free guide for Christians struggling with mental illness. With unflinching honesty, Sarah shares her story of battling depression and fighting to stay alive despite toxic theology that made her afraid to seek help outside the church. Pairing her own story with scriptural insights, mental health research, and simple practices, Sarah helps you reconnect with the God who is present in our deepest anguish and discover that you are worth everything it takes to get better. Beautifully written and full of hard-won wisdom, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die offers a path toward a rich, hope-filled life in Christ, even when healing doesn’t look like what you expect.