This book is an answer to the question with which Sartre concludes being and nothingness: how are we to understand a freedom that wants to be a freedom? One of Sartre’s most fundamental concepts is what he has called the “circuit of selfness,” our attempt to fill ourselves with being. This is how we typically live our lives. Yet a focus on filling ourselves with being is psychologically unhealthy, for it leads to bad faith and conflict. In this book, Dr. Schlee presents an alternative, psychologically healthier approach based not on filling ourselves with being but on embracing the freedom we truly are.

Some cracked hearts mend and some implode. For the residents of a usually quiet and peaceful neighborhood, life is about to change. Beneath the peaceful and seemingly law-abiding veneer lurks danger, violence, and a festering web of interconnected secrets, lust, and betrayal. Everyone has a secret, tucked away in a private place in their minds, safe from discovery. But dark forces at play will pry open these mental vaults, and soon no ones privacy will be protected. Hearts will shatter, lives will end, relationships will fall apart, and paranoia will sweep the shadows. Some will find perverse thrill in a forbidden love, and others will pay the price for it. Some will move from obsession to violence, and no ones life will be quite as logical as it was before. Every person who touches the life of another leaves a mark. Can neighbors Stephanie, John, and Meg help Ron, Hayley, and Dan conquer their inner demons in time? And will they ever learn the identity of the killer in their midst? Can Zach and Blythes love survive the trauma? Does love truly conquer allor does it destroy it?

End-of-the-world paranoia has been with us since time immemorial. Now, with the end of the legendary Mayan “long count” calendar looming on December 21, 2012 and recent threats of a worldwide economic collapse triggering widespread apprehension and a search for answers, The Cracking Tower offers an arsenal of strategies to turn these fears into an opportunity for spiritual and personal growth. Beginning with a lively memoir of the author’s experiences in the ’60s, the book goes on to explore apocalyptic thinking through perennial philosophy, shamanism, gnostic mysticism, the body as a vessel of consciousness (and death as “an extended out-of-body experience”), and psychedelics. Shaping the discussion is the fascinating metaphor of the cracking tower, an apparatus for distilling gasoline, as a vehicle for distilling our awareness. Rather than speculating on what might occur in 2012, DeKorne proposes vigilance of a more introspective sort. “The important thing,” he says, “is to ignore the finger and strive to comprehend the moon,” to see what our apocalyptic tendencies reveal about ourselves.

There exist the forces of good and evil, which are both actively interfering in the affairs of men and operate by dynamics not explicitly understood by mortals. It appears that man’s actions and inactions are engineered by unseen forces that manipulate him to accomplish a specific purpose. It also appears that in the fulfillment of prophecy, Satan is an unpaid worker in the kingdom of God. This treatise, Cracking the Ancient Codes, captures vividly the intrigues behind the Bible stories from the spiritual dimension. It narrates the story of the Seed and the Serpent, manifesting in different forms as they engaged in unabated contention throughout the ages. The intentions of Satan are clear: to frustrate the manifestation of the Seed, by either defiling or destroying the Seed’s ancestors. In this plot, Israel and Jerusalem are the sacred sites; the Jews and later the church are the principal actors. Without ambiguity, the Light shines with an outstanding luminance and Darkness cannot decipher the mystery behind it. Mortals have to make the constant choice between life and death. Events surrounding the state of Israel and the existence of the church remain the most valid markers for fulfillment of spiritual prophecy. The world must be conscious of the warfare that exists and must not be engulfed in the deception of a no-devil secularity.

A young boy's life is shattered when his mentor and older brother breaks his neck playing high school football and lands in a wheelchair. Teetering at poverty line without insurance, all resemblance of a normal family or social life is snatched away from the boy and his family; stress replaces love in the home. Later on, as a young adult, the same little boy witnesses his youngest brother's battle against leukemia, a child killer, and he prays that he doesn't die. As if he hadn't had enough anguish during his youth, twenty years later the same boy, now a man and father himself, is forced to endure the helpless sorrow and pain watching his three year old son fight cancer, a 4 year battle of never ending therapy, pain and tragedy. Hello, my name is Chuck Kesterson, and I am the "young boy" and father who is witness to all the tragedies described above. I have written a 76,000 word, nineteen chapter novel of these non-fictional events. My book's main objectives are to paint a picture with words detailing my wonderful early childhood and how it was shattered with the tragedy of my older brother's accident and my little brother's fight with leukemia. I continue on in biographical sequence to explain my participation as a firefighter during two major airplane crashes, then on to describe the events surrounding my 3 year old boy's four year battle with cancer.

Mia Johnson, the songbird of Living Waters Church, the daughter of a powerful pastor, and loving wife to her husband Edward, is living the perfect life or so it seems until she is unexpectedly hit with a blow that makes her question her faith and existence in God. Her pain, sadness and disappointment of this untimely revelation quickly turn into bitterness and disgust and she decides to leave her once storybook life and family behind to embark upon a journey that is ultimately destined for destruction. As her family attempts to heal its own exposed wounds and crushing secrets, Mia finds consolation and corrupt employment with a childhood friend, Corey, who is rightfully powerful in all the wrong ways. As Mia desperately looks to continually distance herself from her family thousands of miles away, the bit of light that remains within her, is a lingering reminder in her new life that God still loves her in spite of her pain and decision to leave Him. She will soon have to make a critical decision whether to return home and forgive her transgressors, as God does His children, or continue to deepen her roots in working in the dark bowels of crime.